Now on my happiness function

I could not stay away from mathematics in my last post. So this one I promise would have almost zero quant. Well ehh... this one might even be a page of some melodrama, of some cheesy "K"-series star plus mega serial. But this would be the easiest way to help you grasp on the happiness function. I will keep on using the terminologies from my last post while at the same time put inside braces the explanation of the term in connection to life. Let me begin:
Recently the variable 'k' (relate k from my last post) in my life took one step jump. This entrance of this variable was sudden and hence the Size() (the importance) of other variables in my life did not have time to readjust. Hence the only thing that could have happened is the total space of life increased. The variable entered with certain Size() (importance in my life). It had huge potential to grow bigger with time. But the beginning few days were ones of apprehension. However slowly over the last month I am getting to know that particular variable better. The Size() of it in my life is increasing no end. With all its nuisance, with all its use of un-choicest of words as adjective for me I am beginning to feel that this variable is mostly in my mind while other variables are in the nebula region.
Hence as the Size() gets bigger, the Concentration Factor for this variable increases. So when this variable is in my mind, my happiness gets totally dependent on this variable. And hence, at a time when there are thousands of other things affecting my life, the state of those thousand things have not changed in the past one month. I am mostly happy because that variable is mostly happy. Well I must say it is not happiness all-round for spring cannot be everlasting. But it is a swing between autumn and spring. When it is autumn for the variable it is autumn for me, and spring causes spring.
I hope this post is good enough to make you understand the happiness function. I will delve on Size() later.

Delving deeper into the happiness function: The Concentration Factor

Remember my Happiness function?? I am restating the equation over here:

state of mind = CF*function(Variable 'n') + (1 - CF)*function (Nebula 'n-1')

For a detailed explanation of the theory that I developed please click here

Today I thought of making an attempt to understand this concentration factor 'CF'. And try to explain my current out of the world state in my next blog based on this explanation.
Let me first write down the salient features of CF:
1) CF is not constant, it varies with time, for some it is controllable
2) CF as a variable is not exogenous, in fact it is endogenous and depends on the variable 'n'

Point 2 requires some explanation. There are certain things which while dominating your mind (i.e. being the nth variable and not being in the nebula) somehow demands getter attention. Hence the concentration factor for these variables would be close to one. May be decoupling concentration factor from each variable is a method which the "sanyasi" practices. The question that immediately comes is how is this CF dependent to the variable. From here on I will try to be less mathematical and more practical.
Lets say there are total 'k' variables that matters in your life. This 'k' includes the persons that matter in your life, the incidents that shape your life, your career, and an innumerable number of other things. More importantly this number 'k' is changing as new things start affecting in your life. I define a new variable 'Size(n)' as the amount by which the nth variable is "important in"/"affecting" your life.Can I say:

Life = SUMMATION(Size(n)) n = 1 to k

Hence I say:

Concentration factor CF = (Size(n)/Life)

Here I will amend the Happiness equation a little as follows:

state of mind = Magnification Factor*CF*function(Variable 'n') + (1 - CF)*function (Nebula 'n-1')

Where Magnification Factor is a new variable which is a constant for a specific person. This factor is introduced to stress the greater importance to the variable which is in the mind and not in the nebula. Perhaps with meditation one can increase this Magnification Factor.

Clearly the bigger the Size(n) for a variable 'n' more is the concentration factor. This equation is well in line with my previous argument that for a sanyasi who has acquired salvation his CF = 1. This is because he has only one variable affecting him and hence k=1. (Please check with the equation).

Alas the story of dissecting happiness just keeps on increasing. The moment I deciphered the code of one variable CF, another variable "Size(n)" comes into the picture. To make matter difficult this size function is a function of time as well. The importance of a particular thing in your life keeps on readjusting with time. Just think about the importance of that cricket bat in your childhood, and you will understand how Size(cricket bat) has kept on changing in your life.

On New Year Hopes & Waiting

On New Year Hopes:
Another new year has come. Back it was in 1988 when I for the first time observe/experience new year celebration in the TV. So many new year celebrations, so many wishes the cycle frankly does get repetitive. For me the year 2010 has got some unusual significance. I have the feeling that this is the year which is going to set my path for a long time to come.
On Waiting:
Do I believe in God. Perhaps I do. Not in the form that I am to worship Him in a temple everyday, but in the form that I try to be a good human being & thank Him after he grants me all my wishes. And strangely I have always been made to wait for my wishes but sure enough they have invariably been granted. The wish that I had, has been finally granted and the long wait is made sweeter by fulfilling the wish exactly the way I had crafted it. Frankly I did not expect more.
And so dear year 2010, after getting all the pieces together please let them fall in place. Just the way I have imagined.

Intellectually Superior??

I was wondering!!! Within my short career I have interacted with a number of peers, friends of various countries. But time and again I am intrigued by the thought how much superior we Indians are with respect to our intellectual capabilities. We are much more competitive than any other people in the world.(Perhaps Americans are the only ones who can come close & I have never interacted with Japanese people). Nor even the Chinese. In spite of this, how could the British control India for such a long time. Why India is still developing and not developed? These are some of the questions I have tried discussing with my friends and the answer is not very hard to find. Perhaps we Indians lack in mental strength, the same competitive spirit is what kills us. I will delve more on this topic in the coming days.

And I am back :((

I told you: The good times would just daze off !!! I wonder if the velocity of time is actually constant. Anyway the trip has given me enough material to blog on for the next couple of weeks. Right from the point I set my foot on the Calcutta airport to the time I set my foot off I had been trying to understand what is wrong with my country, specifically my state. But amidst all the wrongs, what is it, which is pulling me back to India. What is it, which is telling me constantly: "Foreign Land" this is not where I belong. I will write in details.
In the meantime let me tell you life for me is changing "FAST". (I am so intrigued by the velocity of time). The details of the latter would be revealed in due course of time as well. I hope in the coming months my life settle in exactly the way I want it to be. I know that is too much to ask. But I have this habit of going against the norm, and follow my heart. Remember when I ditched IIM-A for IIM-C, my mental set up is somewhat similar at the moment. And I also have this habit of driving life my way. I will do that. I have certain dreams to follow.
The tone of the blog is absolutely what it would be after coming back from home. And why not because home is where the heart is.

Home Calling

And I am going home..!! After four months I am catching the next flight to Kolkata from Kuala Lumpur. I know the next ten days are going to fly away.
For the last few days I am contemplating why the hell I am going around places looking for job. Why can't I settle down in Kolkata itself. The place where I have the maximum number of well wishers. I know some of you are laughing. Even I would have done so a few years, or a few months back. But this thing about settling in Kolkata is into my head now.
I feel jealous of people whose home town is Mumbai, Bangalore or Hyderabad who have so much of option to choose from. If only the stupid government of West Bengal, or the opposition would have a different piece of mentality. I somehow feel that the effect of inactivity, doing nothing at work has corroded the minds of Bengalis in such a way that nothing can happen in that state any more. People simply do not have the vision, motivation of getting the state forward. And the conclusion is: my dream of settling down in Kolkata with a good job is perhaps never going to come true. I am sure there would be a few thousand who would echo the same feeling with me.

And I am 50 blogs old

50 blogs in three years!!! Well yes my stream of blogs is three years old...Which puts an average of 16.66 blogs per year, just more than one blog per month. Dismal!! Considering I love writing so much. I should write more often.
Looking back I wanted to rate the blogs that I enjoyed writing the most. Tough job, but following would my top five:

1) Feel Good Factor: The internal Variables
2)Food for thought: A question from Economics
3)Distance & Teleporting
4) Gambler in Casino & Stock Market
5) Archive: The Beginning

I felt thrilled when I was making the choice as I thought there are a couple of others blogs which I have left out. I liked my last blog Three Wishes, & A day with parasites. One more thing, as I am writing more, my thought chain is improving. Perhaps some day I would collect all my blogs together (leaving aside the cheesy ones) and get going publishing in the hard copy format. If only I could get some more feedback from my readers. It is hard to know without the comments. I hope my 100th blog comes up before 2011.
Frankly I want to be a writer some day. And tell you what, I want to write in the same way I write my blogs:
1) Erroneous Grammar
2) Using words not present in english dictionary
3) Deconstructing sentences to fit my style.
4) Putting in lots of mathematics. (I am going to increase them in the blogs)
5) I would try a little bit of personification of inanimate things. Know what..you can write on controversial topics using this style.
Frankly I can do all this if my brain remains fresh, and this stupid world and my experiences keep feeding me with ideas that tweaks that grey thing